Crappy Day

I had a crappy day today.
One: I took a nap@1pm. I am a terrible napper. I don’t set an alarm and so naps turn into all out sleep. I can sleep for days if no one wakes me. I am like a bear hibernating.
My nap that didn’t end took me out of the running for the day’s most productive person.
And I missed Bozzio’s afternoon walk.Never mind that I got up at 8:30 am to walk him(a super human feat of will) and was out with him until 10:30. Never mind that I also hauled my boyfriend’s and my collective 30+ pounds of laundry to the drop off as well as walking the dog.

No! I am still the bad person. Because Adam came home around 5pm and found me still sleeping.
The shame. The horror. He was so mad at me that he didn’t talk to me for the rest of the time he was here. He is doing a petsit in the city that requires him to stay overnight. So that stunk.
I got mad,too. Like, I do all this stuff around the house:shopping cooking and cleaning and doing my work and walking the dog.

Sometimes I work all night and don’t sleep at all. Sometimes I reverse sleep. I sleep during the day like any other night worker does. So why am I always feeling guilty? Don’t I support myself? Don’t I carry my own weight? It would be one thing if A. supported both of us only to come home and see his no good girlfriend asleep and the dog unwalked.

I agree that one must have some structure in one’s life which work supplies. I don’t really live by any routine but I do like the work that I do so I do it. A lot. And I skimp on sleep grabbing my “naps”. Today I managed a gargantuan 6 hours of sleep.

Ugh.Why must we sleep at all? Don’t they have a pill yet to let us only sleep a few hours a day without health problems ?I love to sleep but it’s so hard for me to just stop everything and shut my eyes. I am the daughter of 2 nightowls. Neither my mother or father want to sleep when they are supposed to,either.
So A went on back into the city and I tried to get into updating some Web sites but I just felt cranky and surly. So I had a big old glass of Bloody Mary.I hope tomorrow is better.
By the way: dropping off laundry is so much better than doing it yourself! Phew.we’re good for another week and a half.